Today, I had control issues and I wasn’t in the best mood. I could see it affecting the people around me as well. It sounds kind of silly, but when my heart is overwhelmed with strong emotions I know it’s time to hit the Bible. When I’m upset there’s a line that always flashes in my head, “I need more Jesus, right now.” Today was one of those days where I just needed more Jesus. 

I went to my bible and flipped to where I last left off in my readings and started reading. I wasn’t exactly looking for an answer, I just wanted to be in His word. I have come to realize that it’s in the moments when you least expect it that Jesus answers and comforts you. While reading in Matthew about the betrayal of Jesus, His crucifixion, and resurrection Jesus reminded me that He is not only my savior, but my King. He has authority over me and everything in my life. If I have authority/control issues it’s because I haven’t truly allowed Christ to reign in every aspect of my life. It’s kind of like a chain of commands. If I acknowledge God’s authority over my life then I will acknowledge the authority He has also placed in my life; my parents, my future husband, my boss, the law, etc. 

When I’m not in control I feel like, “Authority threatens my freedom. It says I am not in charge, not the boss of my own life. Yet, as Christians, we aren’t meant to live under the authority of our own rule. We have a King!” I am reminded that I just can’t do as I please all the time. If I didn’t have authority in my life then I would definitely be living a selfish and carefree life right now and that would be absolute chaos.